Need a push

I am kinda giving up, little by little...
A sudden fall here, an unexpected slip here, a stumble there...
I am kinda falling apart, I am kinda pushing myself...
I am kinda passing the time, I am kinda unwilling...
I am kinda dragging myself...
I am kinda counting days...
I am kinda missing the force from within, the will from within...
I am kinda waiting to start, I am kinda waiting for it to end...
I am kinda waiting to fall, to bounce back high...
I am kinda waiting for a miracle to take me high up in the sky!!!